Idiotic

[Gila...gw baru inget pernah nulis puisi ini. Puisi ini gw tulis...sebelum gw baikan sama Kaitoicha. Dan lagi emo. Yeah, kombinasi yang bagus.]

Listening to own heartbeat on Saturday night
A little child shivering under her blanket
Whispering her true heart slowly
An incredibly brittle heart, only she know with what it filled

She would be me, I’ll never realize
I couldn’t see myself on her face
Is she for real? She is me.
I bet that person wouldn’t care for a bit

Oh, you the one who planning something to murder me
Did you say to everybody that I leave you?
If yes, please don’t ever do that again
I never hear lies from your mouth before this

When you laugh at me, maybe, in your own house
Without something is knocking inside your heart
I’m sick of death on my bed
Tears have coincide my lungs, all for you

I enfolded with your poisonous sentences several months ago
To said something about you won’t sad if I die
I can’t do anything except hide my own feeling
Tell the truth that lies without expressions

I always think you’ll be melt under my hand
And now I realize how dumb that is
How can I ever think about that?
Sorry for being annoying all of time…

Thus memories about you,
Are now echoing in my head

When I hear your laughter far, far away without me
I know that I am all alone
A single voice above the noise
And like a common thread but I know it happens without me

Loving you always will never be tougher
You must be expect how idiot I am
To loving someone that dropped me out harshly
And somebody is whispering me those facts…

I’m afraid I wouldn’t be able to see you again
I want to protect you, to prove me right
And the sounds are whispered
I’ll never be able to do that, and I’ll always being an idiot

And I know it’s all true
Just waiting for someone to pick me up from this wicked world
And hope you’ll realize my feeling after my death
Thus act will conclude my suicide

Sasha, 2009

[*ngesot kabur*]